CNF: Alternative Topic

            I wonder what it will be like after high school. Will I stay close by or move away? What college am I going to choose? I already got one acceptance letter, am I going to choose that college? What will it be like? Where would I be living? Am I still going to be shy and quiet? Or will I finally speak up and be more out going? Will I keep in touch with all my friend from high school or will it be like everyone says and I never talk to them? How much will I miss my family? Will it be so unbearable ill end up moving back? I have always wanted to move out, but when the day comes will I still want to?

            I remember freshman year, dreading coming to the same school as my older brother. Not knowing where to go, what to do, or who to talk to. I remember coming into AVID and feeling out of place. “Everyone’s so loud and talkative and I'm not. Where do I fit?” I remember walking through the halls and everyone looking so much older than me, so much taller. Four teachers, four classes and hundreds of new faces. I remember having to stand in a giant circle in AVID for an icebreaker activity, “Get in order from the first letter of your last name”, the teacher instructed, enthusiastically like the cheerleader she once was. I remember walking by a short blonde girl wearing pink, and the look she gave made me want to walk away and never go near her again, I thought she hated me. I remember the year going by so slow I thought it would never end. And I remember going to my brother’s graduation and thinking, “wow, Zeus is going to really do something with his life.” I remember wondering what I'm going to do when I graduate and here I am now less than 8 months from graduation.

            What will it be like in 4 years when I graduate from college? What will I have accomplished? What will my life be like? Who will I remember from high school? Will my worries be the same? What will I do after college?

            I hope I decide to go to Humboldt State University. I hope I will be living in their dorms on campus, walking through the streets of the town, with the ocean near by. I hope I get to experience what its like to be away from home, living there surrounded by the hundreds of brilliant skyscraper like redwoods. I hope I'm happy with what I’m doing, a smile always on my face. I hope I still have hour-long conversations about anything and everything with my friends from here. Talking over the phone, texting, IMing or talking on Skype about what’s new and how lifes been going. I hope my family visits me and I visit them so we never seem too far apart. I hope I’m happy with the decisions I’ve made and never regret the future I chose.